Chapter #14

Woah .. It's been three years since I sat down to write. And this time it isn't me murdering a poem. Objective was to have fun & fun was what was had – for lunch and dinner. Even had the midnight snack before calling it a day!

Feel a little content, a little wiser. You can never have too much fun, but things tend to slow down after 1000 days. My hair is a little less spikey, pants a little higher, shoes a little less shinier & still no sign of a beard. These three years have taught a lot – what not to speak, what not to do, who not to call and most importantly how much to not drink (still a little vague, but who is perfect).

On the not so sunny side of 20's, experiencing a sort of quarter life limbo. Played the game by the book, did the right thing at the right time – studies, work – still in pursuit of the missing piece. Ever since I gained sense of who I am and what I want to do, I have been in the pursuit of this missing piece. What is it? Is it a state of being – a state of mind or a state of heart? Or who is it? All I know is what I'm in pursuit of today is an implicit assumption tomorrow.

But things have sped up in the recent past. There has been a sinsudial flow of emotions. I have had a heart break, crossed a line and avoided confronting myself on revisiting the past. Distance seems to have been the best answer to all these problems – it clubbed with time is the practical remedy for all issues.

Distance was achieved – but the state of zen is nowhere in sight. Unable to decode if the sense of zen is lost or missed somewhere in the past. Hope to get more wiser with the passing clock, pants a little higher, hair a little less spikey and me clearer of what I want!