Chapter #9

sooo close ... bt yet so far
i really wish ... i hd a car
i m nt alwyz dis ...
... y do some guyz sit nd piss ??

y do ppl get .. offended ?
ven .. thy r nt da 1 bein contended
i aint no shaddy cynic ...
... cribbn bout lyf nd its gimmic
i too tend 2 smile ...
... nd nt sulk ovr my poignant pile

i write .. ven i m sad
dis tym, tryn my hand ... on bein glad
i'm happy .. i'm filld wid joy
.. m no longer da 4 yr old boy
've stepped out of my cribb ..
.. nt shwn ny sign of jibb

disz da new me ... disz da new guy
tryn 2 match my new shirt wid da old tie ..
i m da big darn dark knight
flyin da kite .. in dis stormy night

goshh .. its soo hard 2 rhyme smthn wid happy
all my skeptic senses, cum up wid is ... crappy
cant go longer den dis ...
my gloomy aura .. is all i miss
lemme dish dis out ..
.. widout 'vin 2 choke one out

lyf aint no bitch ... no galz a witch
.. whoz da damn snitch ??
dat i shd freakn ditch ...

Chapter #8

26 Oct ... here i am
still, tryn 2 figure out .. who i am ??
its been months ... since i wrote
still clueless .. as vat 2 quote

lifez unfair .. life's a bitch
y cant it b a liberatin hitch
i'm sick nd tired of whinin ..
jst wonder .. ven 'll b my shinin

m down .. m hurt ... m out
tried evrythn .. 2 fight dis stout
i console myself ... 4 a shifting respite
only later .. to sulk in my plight

i dunno ... vat 2 do .. nd vat nt 2 do ...
to let go or hold on ..
or catch a new shit, nd move on
m perplexed wid agony ...
.. my heart playin a mute symphony

aaahhhh ..... dis feels iiuucckkkk ...
i mean .. vat da fuck ??
m filled wid persecutin rile ...
.. 've no reason 2 smile

den thrz me in my solitude ...
... tryn 2 find da right attitude
ven i sit back nd muse over my remorse
... my heart tells me one thing - hope
dat one day .. . some day .. maybe
my donna feels da way i do ...
disz vat keeps me going
nd makes me stand on my feet ..
... and face da heat

da nxt day ... m filled wid zeal
disz da only way my wounds can heal
her smile brings me 2 my immortal bliss ..
.... dis lasts 4ever .. is all i wish
but u dnt alwz gt ... vat u wish
i gt ... vat i didnt deserve
dis aint part of my reserve ...


u still gotta deal wid dis itch ..
cuz dis is vat lyf is .. a bitch

Chapter #7

disz chapter number - seven
... nd m still a lon' way 4m heaven
its been a while, since i hd tym 2 write ...
... nd m nt writin dis jst out of spite

soo mch has happened, i 've soo mch 2 tell
lemme strt off .. 4m whr i fell
she hurt me gudd .. she hurt me bad
she chcukd me out lyk an old fad ..

i wz da center of all da scrutiny ...
.. evry1 curious 2 kno y da mutiny ??
didnt kno vat 2 say ... all dat glitters aint gold
da reason i knew .. . wz 2 cheap 2 b sold
y dont ppl ask her dis ...
... nd nt cum up 2 me nd say - y dis ?
i felt sick, used nd disgusted ..
.. on hw i wz played along by dis small busted

nw i kno shez da queen of dis 'use nd throw' game ...
makes me wonder ... hw little can ppl bcum 4 fame
well now . .. i dnt give a tiny rat's ass
dis episode hs taught me - 2 hold on 2 my cash
nd nt spend it on any promiscuous lass

ven i wz lft all alone ..
... only my tru frnd hd shone
i eat my words back ...
she aint da witch nor da bitch
i m such a big dick .. 4 'vin said da shit
shez my angel, my pink dress hotttie ...
who tld me hw 2 give it bck 2 dat -
gud 4 no use *$@%$#!

ven i sit nd cogitate ...
y did it all strt in da first place ?
dis isnt hw lyf is supposed 2 b
... its supposed 2 b fair

WHO SAID LYF IS .... ??

Chapter #6

back 2 whr i strtd ....
... my lyf - tormented
wz thr a cure 2 my pain ?
vat i feel ... is all 4 vain

nthr mrnin ... nthr beginin
a new twist 2 my yarnin'
i dunno .... vat happened
hw it happened ... but it happened

smthn hd changed ...
.. y'dy seems as if neva existed
all da pain ... all da agony wz gone
she wz my angel dat had shone

she lifted me from da ground ...
nd glued back ... vat hd scattered around
she hd been thr 4 me all along ...
.. i wz stupid nd hd thaut it wrong

i wanna kno u inside out ...
... disz all she hd 2 shout
it wud 've been crystal clear ...
.. nd nobdy wud had 2 steer
but vats dun ... is dun
dis wz nobdy's idea of fun

ven i luk bck, i dnt kno vat dis feeln is takn ovr me
.... these r da wrds she tld me
i kno dis feeln, it aint summer luv
cuz i feel it 2 .... nd it is jst love
so my lil munchkin,
these 5 wrds i swear 2 u ....
.... i'll be thr 4 u

Chapter #5

disz wrng .... disz unfair
all i can do is glare

i ve been left stranded ..
... da wrld declarin i am unwanted

... can ny1 plz take a guess
my life'z in one big mess ..

its tru ..... my life'z screwd
nd da broken pieces cant be glued

thy lie all scattered around ..
... sme ov 'em burried deep in da ground

've 2 face vat is true
disz my destiny ... disz my due

if vat ended .... hd nevr started
den y does my soul feel departed

thrz no cure ... 4 dis pain
disz more den a lingering bane

its gonna finish me off sme day ..
... dat day i hope be today !!

Chapter #4

i wz filled wid remorse ..
.. cuz i scrwed up, ven i wz dis close

who shd i nw blame ....
... 4 gettn caught up in dis daft game
wz it realllly me ....
who hd set her free ?

dunno .... u cant lose smthn
.... dat u never had

shez gone in a flash ....
... nd left me 2 crash
its been a while ...
.... am sick of bein in a bile

i m nt da one to be blamed ....
... cuz shez da only 1 who played
she made her choice ...
... widout even hearin my voice
weren't 'we' into dis 2gthr ...
wzn't my consent - a thaut 2 ponder

she hurt me .. whr it hurt da most
dis anguish is gonna haunt me lyk a ghost

it finished ... it ended
but had it really ever started ??

Chapter #3

disz da nxt chapter ... da nxt begining, da nxt ending
another girl, another trouble ....
... here i am, wid another struggle

screw the date ... doesnt matter when it all began
vat matters is ... hw fucked i am

disz my ostracized balad ..
... nd am sure by da end, it wnt leave u glad

smehw, again ... i fell 4 another girl
i kno, u might think .. vats new, its dat same old 'gal'(punjabi)
Ain aain .. . ..
it aint da same old 'gal'
... she wz different, she hd shimmerin eyes
which am sure hd shaken tons of guys
her persona wz electrifyn ...
nd hd shocked me ... rite dwn da spine
i wz astounded by dis divine beauty
.... and her angelic purity

all i cud do wz admire ...
... she wz da princess, i wz da pauper
imaginig us 2gthr
... wz lyk da idea of filling buckets wid a dropper

tym tick-tock 'ed its way thru months ...
... b4 smthn cud happened between us

nd ven it finally did ...
it sure made evry1 slid
i cudnt believe dat it wz me ..
.. who wz bein given so much glee
i felt elated, totally captivated ..
dat my goddess too wz fascinated

bt who wz i, 2 think soo much ...
... shd 've known dat she didnt think as such
wz i really ... askn .. too much ??
dis aint ny fairy tale ... disz my lyf
mishaps lyk dis are a rife

when i begin 2 think bout it ...
dnt kno .. .
hw it all ended ?
y it all ended ??
all i kno ... IT ENDED

Chapter #2

She shut out on me
& gave me no clue
i began to think about me, myself and her
as how i had thought about no one, but her
she made me look like a fool
& think that she was 2 cool
i was pissed .. . ..
& felt like a 40 yr old virgin, whose never been kissed.

Again i began to think .. . ..
dat vat was wid dis chick
dat made me so sick ???
i thought harder and harder
dis made my head itch
but i finally realised dat
she was nothing but a witch, a bitch.

**** Data Not Available ****

da words dat r coming out are pathetic
Nothing close to being charismatic
she deserves much worse than this
but vat i can say is .:. .:.

All this has taught me one thing .. . ..
no bitch can destroy a guy
no matter how hard she tries, she cant make him cry.

Chapter #1

Its suprising, Just amazing .. . ..
how a girl can destroy a guy
without sayin a word she can make him cry
this is my story and not a bollywood flick
so it 'vin a happy end just won't click.

18 July, when it all began .. . ..
I saw her and got dazzled by her beauty
her pink dress made her look like a hottie
i stood there all scared
& did nothin but glare
her beauty made me nervous
but on the surface
i looked calm and ready
i opened my mouth
but da words didn't come out
i was late n lost her in da crowd.

Days passed into weeks
& weeks passed into months
when i finally had a chance to speak
with my princess of da south east
i was glad, i was jumping with joy
i felt like a four year old boy

From then every time we met, i used to falter
& dream about standing with her at da altar
day after day.
i beacame open to her
& she became open to me
we used to yap on da phone n let our words flow by
n my feelings for her became stronger as da time passed by

I thought we had become friends
Ain aain .. . ..
i wasn't a friend to her
i was a nobody ...
she stopped speakin and shut all doors on me
she stranded me & gave me no clue
as to how ? why?
It just makes me wonder .. . ..
how a girl can destroy a guy
without sayin a word she can make him cry.