Chapter #8

26 Oct ... here i am
still, tryn 2 figure out .. who i am ??
its been months ... since i wrote
still clueless .. as vat 2 quote

lifez unfair .. life's a bitch
y cant it b a liberatin hitch
i'm sick nd tired of whinin ..
jst wonder .. ven 'll b my shinin

m down .. m hurt ... m out
tried evrythn .. 2 fight dis stout
i console myself ... 4 a shifting respite
only later .. to sulk in my plight

i dunno ... vat 2 do .. nd vat nt 2 do ...
to let go or hold on ..
or catch a new shit, nd move on
m perplexed wid agony ...
.. my heart playin a mute symphony

aaahhhh ..... dis feels iiuucckkkk ...
i mean .. vat da fuck ??
m filled wid persecutin rile ...
.. 've no reason 2 smile

den thrz me in my solitude ...
... tryn 2 find da right attitude
ven i sit back nd muse over my remorse
... my heart tells me one thing - hope
dat one day .. . some day .. maybe
my donna feels da way i do ...
disz vat keeps me going
nd makes me stand on my feet ..
... and face da heat

da nxt day ... m filled wid zeal
disz da only way my wounds can heal
her smile brings me 2 my immortal bliss ..
.... dis lasts 4ever .. is all i wish
but u dnt alwz gt ... vat u wish
i gt ... vat i didnt deserve
dis aint part of my reserve ...


u still gotta deal wid dis itch ..
cuz dis is vat lyf is .. a bitch